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Saturday, 29 August 2009

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    A Hangover You Don't Deserve
    By Bowling for Soup
    1985
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    Post A Few Secrets!

    Post a few real life secrets of yourself! I think it'd be cool to know each other a little bit more, you know? It's not like we'll ever meet you IRL, but it'd be cool to know what people are like.. you know?

    So yeah.. Here are some of mine.

    • I've forgotten my MapleStory password. I don't know the account's linked e-mail's password either. RIP PirateJing.
    • I haven't been able to draw a picture that I like enough to post online. Everything just looks like fail.
    • It's been like this for months.
    • I secretly enjoy listening to Miley Cyrus' music. I think Miley's pretty cool too.
    • My love the band My American Heart all the way!
    • Sevilla is up there too. :D
    • "John Mayer - Slow Dancing In A Burning Room" is what I'm jamming to.
    • I originally picked up the guitar to pick up chicks.
    • Today, music is a great passion of mine.
    • I wish I was in a band. No one around here plays. Everyone else who does is in their own band.
    • I love all kinds of music.
    • I enjoy BackStreet Boys, N'Sync, Westlife, Seal, and more!
    • I've downloaded four seasons of the Spongebob Squarepants TV Series.
    • I've also got the Shaman King TV Series, Planet Earth TV Series, and the Futurama TV Series.
    • I also own the entire series to .hack//SIGN.
    • I also have the first and second series of the PS2 .hack games.
    • I saw the G.I. Joe movie and Storm Shadow is SO FREAKING COOL.
    • Hiro Nakamura is definitely one of my favorites.
    • I wish I was a little taller.
    • I'm going to start working out.
    • I wish I could sing amazingly.
    • I dream of playing the piano.
    • The Cello is my dream instrument.
    • I wish I had a Guzheng.
    • Asian girls, Asian girls, Asian girls!
    • I don't think I could date a FoB though..
    • Chinese and Korean girls are probably the most gorgeous kinds out there.
    • I wouldn't know. Asians generally look the same.
    • When I was in 9th grade, I dated an 11th grader. :B
    • My longest lasting relationship was 8 months beginning when I was 14.
    • I'm so quick to fall in love with some girl.
    • I've given up on girls for now. This area sucks.
    • If a girl said to me, "I like your shirt," I'd say, "Thanks," and crumble due to being shy.
    • Secretly, I wish I could say, "Well, I like you," smile, and walk away.
    • I've only dated Asian girls before. I'm rejected by others. LIFE SUCKS.
    • I like thin, tall, and pretty girls. I prefer smaller breasts. o__O;;
    • Aside from all that. Uhm.. I enjoy alcohol.
    • I can't stand the taste of beer, but mixed drinks work.
    • I like to hookah with my buddies.
    • I don't many close buddies here anymore. They've all moved off to their respective university/colleges.
    • It gets lonely here sometimes.
    • When I was 13, I tried to be a Shaman. Creepy things happened.
    • I also tried Voodoo, but that didn't work.
    • I haven't been able to games for over a year now.
    • Everytime I play games, I play for an hour and become disinterested for weeks.
    • However, I still play Neopets and Animal Crossing : City Folk.
    • S. Brehn Rubi
    • I believe in intelligent, extraterrestrial lifeforms that have advanced technology superior to ours.
    • I wish I can be an Astronaut someday.
    • Vanessa Carlton, Colbie Caillat, and Taylor Swift are awesome artists. :D
    • I love Science Museums!
    • I miss High School.
    • When I am retired of my main career, I will become a teacher.
    • One of my goals before I die is to visit an advanced civilization of aliens. Like another planet, you know?
    • I'm a sucker for love songs.
    • "Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved"
    • I love oldies music too. :D
    • I grew up listening to the BeeGees.
    • So far in my life, I've only broken one bone, which was a Boxer's fracture on my right hand.
    • Sometimes I wish I never moved to Florida. What would my life have been like?
    • What if I had been born in New York or California?
    • The concept of the Space-Time Continuum captivates me to no end.
    • I'm still single.

    Uhm, yeah.. I think I overdid a bit, but at least I hope it gives you some ideas. :D

Sunday, 09 August 2009

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    Ocean Eyes
    By Owl City
    Dental Care
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    Today Is A Gift, The Present

    The good old days. We speak of them often, reminiscing about how the past was so great. Ultimately, we know that the past is gone and done with. Tomorrow is what we have to look out for. Although the past lays out the path for the present, we can still change our own futures.

    I'm not moving fast enough. The world is changing before my eyes and here I am, still the same as I was yesterday. Where will I be tomorrow?

    So much time has passed and yet today, I still cannot grasp the concept of where I exist in today's world. I am overwhelmed by the vast advances of technology and sheer knowledge. Yesterday, I was just a kid trying to make it through High School. Today, I'm a sophomore college student aiming to obtain my AA degree. Where will I be tomorrow?

    When I was young, I often went outside and ventured into the woods of North Carolina with my friends. We’d build all kinds of forts and we’d play all sorts of sports. My parents took us camping and we vacationed around the US. We saw the world from a child’s eye. But as I grew up, the world started living through the computer. Times have changed.

    I remember in elementary school, we had to go to the library for reference materials. Today, Wikipedia and Google is readily available for any inquiries you may have. When I was in the 4th grade, vocabulary homework consisted of opening the dictionary. Today, it consists of opening dictionary.com. In kindergarten, I actually learned to use a typewriter. The following year, we moved onto using computers. In college, I have a laptop with me all the time. Am I really that old?

    My mom had loads of music cassette tapes. Yeah, she owned some of Madonna’s cassette tapes. I remember being in 9th grade with a CD player. Everyone had a CD player in their pocket listening to whatever they had on their CD. It was only recently that the iPod became more common to people. I remember being a little kid and we bought VHS tapes to play in our VCR players. As the new millennium came around, DVDs were introduced. No longer did we have to rewind our videos! Now we have Blu-Ray technology? Crazy!

    Aside from Polaroid cameras, taking pictures weren’t so instant. Today, we can take a picture and see the result instantly. Do you remember when everybody had dial-up internet connections? Try living in that era today. Streaming High-Definition YouTube videos would’ve been a joke! Did you ever keep a diary or journal? We blog today. Want to know what your friends are up to? Check them on Twitter.

    Ever remember writing actual letters to your friends? We began writing e-mails in the late 1990’s. Today, we use instant messengers to communicate with friends. Cellphones are fully capable with texting today too. Whatever happened to pagers and beepers? Today’s world, we can easily express ourselves so much more. Type a message and send it to your friend’s phone. Take pictures and upload them to Facebook. Compose a song and post it on MySpace. Record a video and send it to YouTube. The internet world brings all of us a little closer. Literally.

    Does anyone remember the Floppy Disks? Whatever happened to the A: Drive? It’s become totally obsolete in today’s world. USB Flash Drive sound a little familiar? I remember when my uncle gave me a 128 MB USB Flash Drive as a gift. It probably cost $80 when I was 14. When I was 16, I paid $80 for a 1 GB USB Flash Drive. Today, they’ve got 32 GB USB Flash Drives for the same price!

    I remember when we got a new computer in 1995. My dad paid $3,000 for the best kind out there. Our hard drive was 2 GB! Two years ago, I paid $350 for a 500 GB External Hard Drive. Today, anyone can buy a 1 Terabyte External Hard Drive for less than $100! Right now, a 6 Terabyte External Hard Drive can fetch for over $1,000 easily. What will it cost by the end of 2010?

    What kind of technology will we have in 10 years from now?

    Time has always intrigued me so. Roughly 10 years ago, we were embracing the year 2000. Our culture, our world has changed so much since then. Although 10 years is about 1/10th of our lives, 10 years is nothing more than a blink in scale to the age of the universe. We live in a world where it grows exponentially. We are being catapulted into infinity and we’re not coming back. But in this flash of time, what will we make of it? Will we construct a foundation for the future? Or we fall to own demise?

    What do I want to make with my life? What do I want to achieve in life? I've learned that I can make anything happen with a strong will. Things don't just happen. Somebody makes them happen. I can never rely on others to make them happen for me. I have to get what I want. But what I do I want?

    For tomorrow, I want to graduate PBCC with an AA Degree with a pre-major in Engineering. I should be graduating when I'm done with Spring 2010 classes. Soon after, I'll transfer into UCF aiming for a Bachelor's Degree in either Aerospace or Mechanical Engineering. I don't care how long it takes. I want to be living in my own apartment or house by then. I also aim to obtain an internship at NASA someday. It'll be my small step into a career, but a giant leap for my life. I don't want to stop learning there either. I want to earn a Ph.D. in my field. Could I possibly even double major in Mathematics? I don't think I could ever be satisfied with the things I learn. I want to know everything!

    Going to college changes your perspective of education. For once, you understand that education has a cost and its benefits. Skipping a day of class in college is like skipping a week in High School. Although you don’t go to class as often as you do in High School, each class teaches the equivalent of a week you learn in High School. For once, you go to school regardless that you are sick. For once, you decide you won’t skip class just because you don’t feel like going. I remember signing up for only two days of school per week. The other five days were complete vacation time for me. Why would I want to skip anyways? Vacation was just “tomorrow”.

    We live in the craziest era of humankind. We've discovered so much in this day and age. I want to be on the leading edge of new discoveries and innovations. Where I am right now is nothing compared to where tomorrow may be. I'll have to catapult myself into the frontier. I have to learn a lot.

    What can I do with my knowledge I will hope to obtain? If I am blessed with such power, what good may come out of it? I don't know yet. I just hope I can change the world for the better. I want to help people live a better life. But I definitely do know one thing.

    If my future career provides me with a surplus of wealth, I would love to give back to the world. Philanthropy. I want to become a teacher when I'm finished with the height of my career. If I had the time and money, I’d teach for free. I want to open up a school somewhere in my life. I want to share my wisdom and knowledge with the world. I want to inspire the young minds of children the same ways my mentors and teachers have inspired me.

    I wasn't always the best kid out there. Early in my life, things came pretty easily for me. I had anything and everything I wanted. Toys, games, books, anything I wanted, I got it. I wouldn't say I was a spoiled kid. I had my limits. When I was young, school was particularly easy. Mathematics was a breeze to me. It always connected and made sense. Everything else was just absorbed so easily. Up until High School, I usually maintained my grades with a lot of A's with the occasional B's.

    When High School came around, I sort of let myself slip. I fell into the gaming world playing computer games all day and all night. But I wasn't stupid. When I was in school, I'd listen to everything the teachers lectured about and I absorbed it all. It was relatively easy. But it wasn't enough. As the years came by, I started to struggle through school. Things didn't come to me so easily anymore. I had to study. But I didn't know what studying was. I thought I just knew it all. Literally. Just listening to the teachers' lectures was usually enough. Usually. But not anymore.

    When I was not at home, I usually played computer games all day. I'd compete online and interact with other people across the world. I devoted so much time to this game. Sure, I sound like a loser for wanting to be a "pro" in this game. I desired to be "strong" and "well acknowledged" within the community. Over time, I gained that level of power I willed for. I was somewhat "famous" for the accomplishments within the game. I felt good.

    But what good was it for? What can I do with a virtual game character? For three years, I spent so much time and money on this pitiful game. What I have in the game now wouldn't be able to do anything significant for anybody in this world. For three years, I became a gamer people "idolized". I was a model character for new gamers to look up to. But in those three years, I wasted away my life for a game that didn't do anything. Before I played games, I had a 4.0 GPA in the 8th grade. By the time I quit gaming, I had a 2.5 GPA when 11th grade was finished. Do you know much money I wasted on the game? $2,000. What could you have bought with $2,000?

    When I started to realize how pointless this game was, I started thinking. What could I have done in those three years instead of gaming? In those three years, I dedicated my time to something that sounded impossible. I had a goal to be the best. A game of several million players worldwide, I was in the top ranks of game. If not at gaming, what if I wanted to be good at something else? What could you do in three years' time?

    I can't look back at those three years now. No matter how I wish those three years were different, my past will never change. But for the years ahead, I have almost a hundred years to do anything I want. Anything. I don't believe the future is planned out for any of us. Whatever happens to us in life because the circumstances allow it to happen. Everybody lives a different life, but we all have similar stories to tell.

    My parents emigrated from Vietnam in the 1970’s because of the war. Escaping Vietnam by sea, they were the lucky few to survive the treacherous waters. My parents left their parents in Vietnam hoping for a better future in America. Many people died by starvation, fatigue, sickness, pirates, and many other reasons. Like many others, my parents came to America with nothing but the rags of clothing on their body. No money, no food. They didn’t even know English. In roughly 30 years, my parents worked hard to earn the home I live in now. They worked for everything they own and everything I have. Everything I have come to know would’ve never been possible without for their hard effort. They’re not prestigious doctors or highly respectable lawyers, but they’re hard working people. My parents earned everything they worked for. What was it that they were working for? I never asked.

    To come to this country with nothing and to die with everything, that’s that the American Dream. From nothing to something, my parents created a foundation for the future. If my parents can do it, I can too. How could my parents achieve so much when they were so far less advantageous? They had nothing going for them, and yet they’ve endured the ordeals of life. Unlike my parents, I was born without the hardships my parents had. I’m not poor and I can speak English. I’ve got everything going for me. I’ve got to achieve more than my parents. I don’t want to work a low end job like they do.

    Of course, I have my own friends who have recently come here to America for a brighter future. They’ll be somebody someday. They deserve it.

    Senior year was the year I changed my life. In that year alone, I had a 3.5 GPA for the 12th grade year. I didn’t even try as hard as I would’ve liked. Unfortunately, my cumulative GPA barely changed into a 2.7 GPA. It was already too late to change. I remember I felt discouraged about college. How could I get Bright Futures now? My guidance counselor forced me to sign up for it although I had doubts of even earning the scholarship. My grades were nowhere near fitting for it. Now my parents would have to pay for my college because I chose to play computer games instead of learning. School isn’t cheap. Each semester alone can easily cost beyond $1,000. For a bachelor’s alone, you’d need four years of schooling. Don’t forget all the other expenses! I felt guilty for not being the best I could be. I thought about joining the Marines and earn my own future that way. I was talked out of it by my family and friends and I’m glad they did. It’s not for me at all.

    I remember I was invited to attend the Senior Awards. All I knew was that I was going to win an Art Award. All my other friends were invited to be acknowledged of their Bright Futures Scholarship Award. That night, never before in my life did I ever felt so inferior to everybody. Everyone was getting money to continue their education in college and all I was getting was a pin for excelling in the “arts”.

    I’m not a great artist either. I only found time to draw in school when I was bored and didn’t feel like listening to the lectures. I’d draw and doodle all over my class work. Terrible. Honestly, I didn’t care that I was being acknowledged for being a good artist in my class. I knew a lot of other kids who weren’t even thought about and they were so much better of an artist than I will ever be. Those kids deserved it so much more than me.

    But that Senior Awards Night was the night that surprised my life. Somewhere along the list of names being called for Bright Futures, my name was one of them. I was shocked, baffled. How could such a kid like me win this award? Was it a mistake? No. However the system worked, I ended up qualifying for Bright Futures. I don’t care how I got it, but to me, it’s a miracle. From then on, I’ve set my mind on a future I cannot reject.

    Today, I am a sophomore student attending PBCC. Currently hold a 3.11 GPA, the highest it's ever been since the 8th grade. Although I'm still not trying as hard as I would like, I'm working harder and harder to change who I used to be. With several more classes to finish by the end of Spring 2010, I am on my way to a brighter future. All is not yet lost because this world is going to give you opportunities all throughout your life. You just have to look for them and take them.

    There’s somebody out there in this world who wished they were you. A typical kid with a life in America with all the luxuries they will never have. Cars, computers, phones, money, food, and anything you can think of. There’s somebody out there who would die to be in your shoes. Never will they have the opportunity to change their lives, no matter how hard they try. You don’t even understand how lucky you are to be where you are in life. You’ve got $10 to see a new movie. But somewhere in the world, a kid needs $10 to buy food for the month.

    What I’ve got today is a blessing and I’ve got to use it to my every advantage. If I can go to school for free, I will go to school. The fact that public education is free is the genius of America. Education cannot be valued. College classes come with a price and they are worthy, but hefty fees to pay. It is unfathomable to understand how free education exists, but it does. Knowledge is the greatest gift known to man. People can take your house, money, and other materialistic possessions, but they can never take your mind. Nobody can take away everything you’ve learned. It’s a once in a lifetime opportunity and you should take every advantage of it. Learn everything you can because you don’t owe anything. It’s the greatest gift life can offer you today. You can learn anything you want. Anything.

    Here I am today, a result of my parents’ hard efforts in life. Here I stand, equal to you all. I am the continuation of my parents’ struggle in life and I will be succeeded by my children. My parents built the foundation for me. Without them, I could never be who I am today. I thank the world. Thank the people who’ve helped you become who you are today. Thank the teachers and mentors who’ve taught you right from wrong. Thank your friends who made you feel like you belonged. Thank the people who gave you opportunities you never knew you had. And thanks the bullies and jerks who’ve made you stronger on the inside.

    Our dreams can only take us so far. Without each other, we cannot achieve our full potential. We can’t do everything by ourselves. Nobody does everything by themselves. Even Albert Einstein studied the works of Sir Isaac Newton, James Maxwell, Michael Faraday, and many other pioneering mathematicians. Everybody used each other’s discoveries to make their own. It’s an inevitable chain of knowledge. But each person made an effort to discover and create a path for the future to build its foundation of knowledge. There is no one person who discovered it “all”.

    We all want to be a part of something, and I must say that we all are connected by the energy all around us. Individually, you have to do your part in life or we all suffer. There’s somebody in this world working for you, fighting for you, dying for you. The least I can do for the world is to give back.

    I never asked to be born. I never asked to look like this. But regardless, I am happy for what I am today. I am blessed with hands to work with and a mind to think with. We all have our own dysfunctions. Nobody’s perfect. Not all of us will be the successful people we wish we could’ve been. But when you get old, know you at least lived your life to the fullest.

    I love the diversity in people. It makes every person so much more unique and special. But deep down inside, it’s who you are that matters. I want to be the kind of person who inspires people to change their lives for the better. I live for you. I’m only happy when you are.

    What will you do with the rest of your life? Where do you want to be when you’re older? What do you want to do?

    Who will you become?

Tuesday, 28 July 2009

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    Bone Palace Ballet
    By Chiodos
    Life Is A Perception Of Your Own Reality
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    The Eight Colors

    I've let the ones I agree with alone. I just disagree about the others, the crossed out ones. I could be wrong, but that's just me. I also took it twice to see the opposite part.

    ..So shall we begin?


    Name: Tuyen

    Date: 7/28/2009
    Colorgenics Number: 13426570


    You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.

    In the past there have been - and maybe there still are - many things that you have had to do without. You have now decided to set your sights on a position or situation that could give you greater prestige and which will afford you considerable self esteem.

    You give the impression that you are a self-sufficient individual, pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure. But this is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional person, one that may make hasty decisions and perhaps repent at leisure. It is time now perhaps to break the bond of detachment and become the real 'you' - the you that you would like to be.

    It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but its fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer.

    You have so many ideas that you would like to revitalise but you need to realise a stable and peaceful condition to do so. Once you can free yourself from all the aggravation and tension around you, you will make strides that may amaze you. You will not be prevented from achieving all the things you so desire.

    http://www.goldinuniverse.com/



    Name: Tuyen

    Date: 7/28/2009
    Colorgenics Number: 70253164


    Everyone feels despondent at times and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. So like the proverbial ostrich you are trying to bury your head in the sand. But that won't work - you have to face reality.

    You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image. You need for those people in positions that matter to recognise your potential and to acknowledge you.

    Everyone, sooner or later gets that feeling that one has been cut off from reality, cut off from everything that's going on around them. It usually happens when there is a complete lack of understanding and co-operation - be it from friends, family or loved ones. So what can one do about it? Instead of pondering as to what the future may hold, do something different. Make a cup of coffee. Have a shower. Read a book. Watch your favourite soap opera. Because as soon as you become involved in something different, the original disassociated feelings will dissipate.

    You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you - that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you they simply flow off you as water flows off a ducks back. You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can 'Let your hair down' and share your hopes, dreams and high standards. You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.

    At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have unadmitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out OK. Have you not heard of the cliche 'smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'?

    http://www.goldinuniverse.com/

Monday, 20 July 2009

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    Heart Station
    By Hikaru Utada
    Prisoner of Love
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    Strangest Night

    So to begin the night, my parents took my brother and left for Orlando suddenly this afternoon. They were taking him to his school's orientation. Taking advantage of tonight, I decided to brew some potions and concoct some cool stuff. Chillin' for some time, the phone rings. I go to answer it and immediately after, I said, "Hello?" The lady on the other side quickly said, "The alarm at your work place has gone off and the police have been dispatched."

    I said okay and immediately went for my keys and left for work. I grabbed a Mr. Brown coffee as I left the house too. Oh man, I think that gave me the shakes. I drove to work pretty fast too. I was keeping a steady 55 mph on the way there. That's crazy. And then I went to the store and there were cops chillin' there. I pulled and asked them what's up. Apparently, nothing much happened, but I decided to go into the store to check it out.

    When I entered the back, I discovered upon two behemoth sized cockroaches. So nasty. I killed them and flushed them down the toilet. I found three in total. Crazy. Subconsciously hungry, I grabbed a bowl of instant Pho on the way home.

    Here I am now.. just shaking. Rofl.

xJing

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    • Name: Tuyen
    • Birthday: 5/5/1990
    • Gender: Male
    • Member Since: 8/17/2007

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