Geez. Take a look at that year. 1990. That's a heckuva long time ago.Nearly 20 years now. What was life like back then? I'm talking about life when I was around the age of 8 years old. That was an amazing life. Although I knew what my parent's love was, I didn't know what a girl's love was. Oh, that was a bliss.
Why did I have to develop the addiction for a girl's love? I lust it; I desire it. I don't know, I'm starting to feel a little empty. I sit alone at work without anyone to really talk to. Sometimes, I wish I had just a companion who'd want to hang out with me there. Anyone.
For hours, the store is quiet. Not a lot of customers during this hour. I sit down and reminisce back at my life in the late 1990's. I remembered how much I enjoyed it. Elementary School was so much fun. I don't know how I survived it! How did I learn so much? Going home to enjoy hanging out with the neighborhood friends.. Discovering new parts of town and running through the forests. Following along side the river, we discovered different parts of the "world" we could only grasp.
Oh my. Only then, I knew what my parent's love was. Now that I'm older, I refused to acknowledge it. But here I am now, without love at all. What is love? What was love like?
When I was around hte ages of 7 or 8, life was really adventurous. My brother and I would hang around our neighborhood just looking for something to do. Sometimes, we'd go hang around these wooden forts we made as kids. We found great forest location spots to build them; so we did. Oh man, I guess I knew several of them. We've ventured around this small lake of water to discover new neighborhoods. Oh, how the world was so big. I don't think I understood how large the world was. But there was so much to discover as a child.
Oh man, the life at school. The life where nobody had to be cool. You were you, and you had friends. Nobody cared that I was Asian. Nobody cared if the other kids were black. We were an embracing community. We feared nobody and held no prejudices against other kids for any reason. We knew no stereotype and all we knew was fun. We were kids. All we wanted was that fun. We grow up in life struggling, trying to have a little bit of that fun again. But some of us grow up differently.
Back then, my brother and I would stay up late at night with a dim light on playing with stuffed animals. We'd roleplay with them, giving them names and character personalities. Oh man, we had our "main" characters. I'm sure there were the kinds of guy we wanted to be when we grew up. I wish I knew how I depicted those characters back then. Yeah, we'd have a bunch of stuffed animals we collected, bought, or earned. We'd make them minor characters too. We had so many nights of these dramas.
We had a TV, but we didn't really watch it except for the weekends. We were those who had antennea TV stations. That meant that for every Saturday morning, there were cartoon shows for us to watch. They were so cool. What kind of stuff did we watch? Oh man, Doug, Pepper Ann, Arthur, and those other shows. I even remember as far back as seein Ren and Stimpy on TV, but I never saw it again a little while after. Oh yeah. The guy's stuff. Dragon Ball Z. That was on TV too. That was some of the most amazing stuff I've ever seen in my life. Of course, they showed Sailor Moon too, but that wasn't our thing. No. All that kung-fu fighting and stuff. Yeah, that was mad cool.
I remember 3rd and 4th grade. That was awesome. I was considered a "gifted child". Back then, that meant you were smart stuff. Really smart stuff. Yeah, I was in that club. We had intense lectures and stuff, specifically for mathematical material. Us? We were top kids in math. Multiplication tests? Got them in record times. Yeah. Us kids were so pro. I forget who they were. I know I was in it. Of course. Troy Clites. I think Rebecca Felner was in it too. I wonder if Philip was in it too..? I think there was more kids, but I don't remember them.. Bleh. Oh yeah, I think Hersh Shah was with us too! Haha. And Allison Cox, I think I knew her too. That was a crazy time. We were geniuses.
Vacation was so cool too. We'd travel down to Florida, where my dad's family lived. I had older cousins too. They were so cool. Like, personal icons to know. Yeah. Mad cool. I don't think we ever grasped the idea of how far we even travelled to Florida. They were almost 20 hour road trips too! Crazy.
But even back at home in Cary, my family would take us around town too. They were pretty much a newly wedded couple too. Oh man, I'm sure they loved their life. The Crabtree Valley Mall was so nice. So cool. But I felt like the Cary Towne Centre was so much cooler. It was more of a homely mall. Natural Wonders was an awesome store. They had so much archaelogical items in the store. Stones, gems, minerals, carvings, and so much other stuff. They were just trinkets of all cultures from around the world in that store. Oh man. That was awesome.
I remember the field trips we used to have too. They were cool places. Some of my teachers took us to amazing places. One teacher took us to the Science Museums. Oh yeah, my dad used to take me to the Smithsonian museum too. That was freaking awesome. I really wanna go back there someday. That was a blast. Oh, nostalgia. It's a verb happening to me everyday now.
I guess these experiences made me the curious type. I've seen teachers who sparked curiousity in kids. For instance, I think my 1st grade elementary teacher grew Acorn seeds in a jar, totally based on a self-contained ecosystem. We grew on never knowing what ever happened to those sprouts. Oh, she was a nice lady.
Ahh... so much to think about. I think I'll go lay down somewhere trying to imagine the excitements of the future. Maybe I'll think about the good times in life right now. Regret nothing. That's what R.Ho said. Hehe, yeah. That's something to keep in mind. We learn from everything we do. That's cool.
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