So the thrills of 2009 is so much. I can't seem to handle it, I don't know. I'm at work today and it's been stressful. It's felt like everyone's against me all of a sudden. My mom called today. I was happy. I miss my parents. Really. I do.
I just want to relax again. It's another month and some before school starts up again. I dunno how that will turn out. I'm going to have to do Physics 1, 2, and Chemistry before I graduate to be a Physics pre-major. Calc 3.. Hmm.. School's going to be very stressful for 2009. I hope I do very well. I'm going to try my hardest to study the material.
And my brother is going to go away to Orlando for school. I can't wait to go. Man, that's going to be awesome..
Jeez, and for some parts of my life, I'm starting to feel a little more alone. I've been hanging out with a lot with some kids too. They've been sleeping over too. It's cool and all, we're close and good friends, but I know that I'm not that close with them. To be wanted makes a person feel great. But lately, I've been feeling like no one really cares if I'm around.
It's my brother Hai and Ho are closer to. I'm just the fourth leg who's just a friend because I'm my brother's brother. I come out to work, but I go alone. No one really comes out or anything. It's not often I get invited anywhere either. Ai-yai-yai.
Not to mention, my friends have a girl of their own. It doesn't bother me. I don't think it does.. But my feelings have been fluctuating lately. Sometimes I'm high on life and I don't care about it. I'm happy. And then there are times I wish I just had somebody to connect with. Somebody to just hang to. I mean, I'm strong enough to be alone, but ugh.. I don't know. I don't how to express it. I know how to fix it, but it's too hard. I'm so confused.
Sometimes I think it's because of who I am. Am I too much of a joker? Can people not take me seriously? It's a struggle to be the better person in life. How can I be a better person?
I just feel so.. incomplete. :(
I've got three wishes. Peace, Love, and Happiness. That's what's up.
Comments (2)
AHA ... unbelievable.!!
is this your other side ?
i thought you are the happiest preson in the world .!!